in the future we will be illuminated clearly by the vision of divinity

It is 3:03 PM on a cold dismal gray ugly Saturday. Such terrible weather today. It has been predicted to be a sunny day tomorrow. I love sunshine. I feel stiff and sore on cold dismal gray day.

Carol is not home right now. She left this afternoon to make a social call in the city of Hudsonville, which is in the eastern part of the State of Michigan.

I have mainly spent the day reading my books and writing in my paper diary. I did drive over to Bibles For Mexico Thrift Store for a few minutes to look at their used books. I found these three old used paperbacks today-

'All The President's Men' nonfiction by Bod Woodward & Carl Bernstein THE TRUTH ABOUT THE WATERGATE SCANDAL

'Mary Queen of Scots' biography by Antonia Fraser

'Lost In The Cosmos The Last Self-Help Book' humor by Walker Percy

In the mail this afternoon I received two used books I had ordered from used books dealers-

'Three Wogs' A Novel By Alexander Theroux

'The Confessions of Edward Dahlberg' autobiography by Edward Dahlberg

This morning I mainly read from a volume titled, 'The Life of Jesus Christ' Part One Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 by Ludolph of Saxony.

Well I will close because I am tired and sore.
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Swords To Plowshares Have A Nice Life

You are bound to us by oaths that you never swore
To reject all of which could help you out
Forever strained against the tides everywhere you go
Tired arms swept away to God knows where
This is a living irony
A living irony

You would be quite the blast if you weren't so sad
And you could bring about the last days if you asked

We will all see each other in this hell you know
So don’t, don't, don't, don’t, be redundant
The horns will trumpet your last days
All your caskets and trebuchets
We will be hopeless in the pure face
Of music played by the true faith

These horns are playing the last song
You'll ever hear, so remember
The words we're signing forever
"Rebuild, we dare you, we dare you"
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Thomas Wolf

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'Max Perkins Editor of Genius' a biography by A. Scott Berg

Thomas Wolf Collection

When I read the life of the writer Thomas Wolf this poem by Charles Bukowski comes to my mind-

Roll the dice

if you’re going to try, go all the
otherwise, don’t even start.

if you’re going to try, go all the
this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.

go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.

if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with

do it, do it, do it.
do it.

all the way
all the way.

you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter, its
the only good fight
there is.

“Roll the Dice” by Charles Bukowski from What Matters Most Is How Well You Walk Through The Fire
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forsake the metal cities, brewing Chimera's gas, lest you disappear

It is 9:34 PM Friday night once again. It seems the weeks just fly these days. It seems just yesterday it was the Year 1952 and I was born. Now I am going on 70 years old and staring the end of my days in the face. None of us lives forever here on earth. I know I will live forever in the New Creation. I have received the gift of eternal life. "For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life" John 3:16.

Carol has gone to bed and I am once again down here in our open basement talking to myself. I have these books to read tonight before I got to bed around 11:30 PM.

Holy Bible

'Darconville's Cat' a novel by Theroux

'America And The Cult Of The Cactus Boots: A Diagnostic' by Phillip Freedenberg Visuals By: Jeff Walton

Today in the mail I received these books I had recently ordered-

'Matthew 1-13' New Testament 1a (Ancient Christian Commentary On Scripture) Edited By Manlio Simonetti

'Matthew 14-28' New Testament 1b (Ancient Christian Commentary On Scripture) Edited By Manlio Simonetti

'The Flea Of Sodom' with an introduction by Herbert Read by Edward Dahlberg

'I'll Stand by You : The Letters of Sylvia Townsend Warner and Valentine Ackland' by Sylvia Townsend Warner & Valentine Ackland

I spent the afternoon hours into the evening hours mainly reading the above books. I am a Reader and a Bookworm. My life is books. My favorite book is the Bible. I am a Christian book lover. Some people surround themselves with diamonds and fur coats, I surround myself with old dusty books. On the Day of Judgment all that will count is did you love the Lord Jesus as your personal Savior and Lord? "When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory" Colossians 3:4.

I do not know what I will do tomorrow. Presently I am seeking to take one day at a time. I will rejoice in the Lord and be glad in it (this day). The Lord is the one who creates each day for us to live in and live for His glory.

So here I sit at my lap top waiting to go to bed. I could take my sleep aids and some Xanax and call it a night. Or I could read the "Introduction to Matthew" in the volume, 'Matthew 1-13' New Testament 1a (Ancient Christian Commentary On Scripture) Edited By Manlio Simonetti. I have been reading and studying the Four Gospels found in the New Testament going on 51 years. I am a graduated of Reformed Bible College and Reformed Theological Seminary. I have a Masters Degree in Theology and Church History. I am a Master of Divinity. So here I sit old and hungry. I only ate two apples for my supper. I am seeking to not gain back the weight I lost over the Summer due to my June 2021 crisis. I lost 20 lbs. over the Summer and I now weigh 211 lbs. I did weight at the beginning of June 2021 231 lbs. I like to be an old skinny man with a long white beard by Winter 2021. I could live on oatmeal, soup, and apples till January 2022.

It is now 10:01 PM Friday night here in Holland MI. I often wonder how many people in the world read my LJ Crookedfingers? I have been writing here since March 2001. I also write in Diaryland and Word Press. I paste in these online journals what I write here in LiveJournal. I also write in Facebook, film videos for a Youtube channel and have a Bandcamp site. I am all over the Internet. One can even look at my photos in Flickr and watch my over 1000 videos in Youtube. I am visible in this sin dark world. I pray all the time to be salt and light in this fallen wicked world. We should be a positive force for spiritual transformation while it is still time. We never know when the Lord will call us home.

I suppose I will close to ponder. Tomorrow will soon be here.
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Christ has redeemed His people out of the hands of their enemies

It is 12:41 PM Friday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cold damp overcast gray day. A day to fall asleep someplace warm and dark.

I got up this morning around 5:50 AM but did not come upstairs till almost 7 o'clock AM. Lately I get up pull up the shades, turn on my lap top and listen to classical music, go back to bed and lay there waking up slowly. After I am somewhat awake I go upstairs to greet my wife and have a morning meal. It must be sad to wake up and have no one that loves you eternally.

I just remembered I did not eat breakfast, but cooked Carol eggs with bacon and cheese on a English muffin for her morning meal. After Carol and I had devotions and prayed I ate a bowl of cereal for breakfast.

I left to volunteer at our local library used books store The Book Nook at 9:35 AM this morning. At the Book Nook when not helping folks with their used books to be bought I read from a book titled, 'The Abuse of God's Grace' by Nicolas Claget. I also this morning before leaving for the library wrote in my paper diary and read from a volume titled, 'The Life Of Jesus Christ' Part One Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 by Ludolph of Saxony Translated By Milton T. Walsh.

Last night we watched some professional football (Thursday Night Football) and then around 8:50 PM we turned off the TV. We prayed and Carol went to bed and I went down into the lower level to read before going to bed. I mainly read last night till my bedtime from a novel titled, 'Darconville's Cat' by Alexander Theroux.

Carol should be home from the Book Nook around 3:15 PM. Time keeps zooming by. I will close to ponder.

"[37] In the last day, that great day of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying, If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink.
[38] He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.
[39] (But this spake he of the Spirit, which they that believe on him should receive: for the Holy Ghost was not yet given; because that Jesus was not yet glorified.)
[40] Many of the people therefore, when they heard this saying, said, Of a truth this is the Prophet.
[41] Others said, This is the Christ. But some said, Shall Christ come out of Galilee?
[42] Hath not the scripture said, That Christ cometh of the seed of David, and out of the town of Bethlehem, where David was?
[43] So there was a division among the people because of him.
[44] And some of them would have taken him; but no man laid hands on him.
[45] Then came the officers to the chief priests and Pharisees; and they said unto them, Why have ye not brought him?
[46] The officers answered, Never man spake like this man.
[47] Then answered them the Pharisees, Are ye also deceived?
[48] Have any of the rulers or of the Pharisees believed on him?
[49] But this people who knoweth not the law are cursed.
[50] Nicodemus saith unto them, (he that came to Jesus by night, being one of them,)
[51] Doth our law judge any man, before it hear him, and know what he doeth?
[52] They answered and said unto him, Art thou also of Galilee? Search, and look: for out of Galilee ariseth no prophet.
[53] And every man went unto his own house." John 7:37-53
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those who have the Holy Spirit do not turn back to sin

It is 1:29 PM Thursday afternoon here in West Michigan. The sun just came out. It rained this morning and was gray till just a few minutes ago.

I got up this morning early once again. I got up turned on my lap top to get it warmed up. I keep my lap top on all the time so as to listen to a Classical Music State in located in Southern California.

When I came upstairs Carol was cooking a breakfast dish to take to a gathering of some of her cousins for breakfast get together. Carol is real big into family, Uncles, Aunts, and Cousins.

I mainly spent the morning writing in my diary and reading from a book titled, 'The Life Of Jesus Christ' Part One Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 by Ludolph of Saxony Translated By Milton T. Walsh. Carol got home from her cousin pow-wow around 11:15 AM.

There is nothing much else to report this afternoon. I cover for someone at the Book Nook this afternoon from 3 PM to 5 PM.

I did film a video this morning for my Youtube channel. When not reading my Christian books I have been mainly reading a novel titled, 'Darconville's Cat' by Alexander Theroux. Since I am falling asleep I will close.
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book collecting & what is true horror

'The Life Of Jesus Christ' Part One Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 by Ludolph of Saxony Translated By Milton T. Walsh

'The Abuse of God's Grace' by Nicolas Claget (1610-1663)

'Against The Darkness: The Doctrine Of Angels, Satan, And Demons' by Graham A. Cole

'Let Nothing Trouble You' 60 Reflections from the Writings of Teresa of Avila Compiled By Heidi S. Hess

'Interior Castle' St. Teresa Of Avila

'The Life Of Saint Teresa Of Avila By Herself' [Penguin Classics]

'The Collected Works of St. Teresa of Avila' Three Volumes

'This Boy's Life: A Memoir' by Tobias Wolff

'The Doctrine Of Endless Punishment' by W.G.T. Shedd

"[6] Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:
[7] Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.
[8] Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:
[9] Whom resist stedfast in the faith, knowing that the same afflictions are accomplished in your brethren that are in the world.
[10] But the God of all grace, who hath called us unto his eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after that ye have suffered a while, make you perfect, stablish, strengthen, settle you.
[11] To him be glory and dominion for ever and ever. Amen." First Peter 5:6-11

"[6] Blessed and holy is he that hath part in the first resurrection: on such the second death hath no power, but they shall be priests of God and of Christ, and shall reign with him a thousand years.
[7] And when the thousand years are expired, Satan shall be loosed out of his prison,
[8] And shall go out to deceive the nations which are in the four quarters of the earth, Gog and Magog, to gather them together to battle: the number of whom is as the sand of the sea.
[9] And they went up on the breadth of the earth, and compassed the camp of the saints about, and the beloved city: and fire came down from God out of heaven, and devoured them.
[10] And the devil that deceived them was cast into the lake of fire and brimstone, where the beast and the false prophet are, and shall be tormented day and night for ever and ever.
[11] And I saw a great white throne, and him that sat on it, from whose face the earth and the heaven fled away; and there was found no place for them.
[12] And I saw the dead, small and great, stand before God; and the books were opened: and another book was opened, which is the book of life: and the dead were judged out of those things which were written in the books, according to their works.
[13] And the sea gave up the dead which were in it; and death and hell delivered up the dead which were in them: and they were judged every man according to their works.
[14] And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the second death.
[15] And whosoever was not found written in the book of life was cast into the lake of fire." Rev. 20:6-15
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Share The Road!

It is 3:55 PM Wednesday late afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cloudy afternoon right now. Earlier it was sunny was a mix of clouds. I left the house this afternoon and took a walk at Upper Macatawa Natural Area. On the way home from my walk I stopped at two thrift stores to look at their used books and found these to add to my library-

'Portrait Of An Addict As A Young Man' A Memoir by Bill Clegg

'An Academic Life' A Memoir by Hanna Holborn Gray

'Midnight in Sicily' Travel Memoir by Peter Robb

'The Beast God Forgot to Invent' three novellas by Jim Harrison

'Manhattan when i was young' A Memoir by Mary Cantwell

'On Canaan's Side' A Novel by Sebastian Barry

'Marya: A Life' A Novel by Joyce Carol Oates

'The Garden Party and Other Plays' Vaclav Havel

'The Price Of Salt or Carol' a novel by Patricia Highsmith

'The Expedition of Humphry Clinker' a novel by Tobias Smollett

'On The Move: A Life' by Oliver Sacks

When I drove up into our driveway Carol was sitting in a lawn chair working on her Woman's Bible Study. This evening Carol goes to her church for a Woman's Bible Study.

Well I will close since I am very tired. I will read this evening 'Darconville's Cat' a novel by Alexander Theroux.

Upper Macatawa Natural Area
Upper Macatawa Natural Area

Upper Macatawa Natural Area

Upper Macatawa Natural Area

Upper Macatawa Natural Area
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